Love is in the heart, not be in the mouth. -- preface
爱在心中，不在口中。——题记
Someone says, father love is august and silent, also someone says father love is make public. But what a lot of people do not know is actually father loves to be all the time beside. My father this year 39 years old, it is numerous compare in father young, but his thought is adherence however once upon a time, particularly old style. He all the year round outer job, spend the New Year to just can come home only, so the Spring Festival is me annual most expectant day.
有人说，父爱是威严沉默的，也有人说父爱是张扬的。但很多人不知道的是其实父爱一直在身边。我的父亲今年39岁，是众多父亲中比较年轻的了，但是他的思想却固守从前，特别老派。他常年在外工作，只有过年才会回家，所以春节是我每年最期待的日子。
Those who remember special profundity is: A year of the New Year's Eve, the family sits when having a meal before the desk in the evening, he still resembles in former years same, asked me final achievement, after I tell him my fraction, his demur does not say to put down a chopstick, interrogatory I why the fraction is so small, do not give me the chance of a bit explanation even. However what he does not know is, take an exam that I took an examination of whole class the first, criticise from him I rise momently then, I also did not want to speak with him again. When having a meal, he placed a shrimp roe to give me actually, the grandma is wanting to block aside, was dissuaded by me however, I eat issued that shrimp, roseola rises with respect to the whole body later, entered a hospital even, because of my prawn kind allergic, and he forgot however.
记忆特别深刻的是：一年除夕，晚上一家人坐在桌前吃饭时，他仍像往年一样，问了我期末考试成绩，我告诉他我的分数后，他二话不说放下筷子，质问我为什么分数这么低，甚至不给我一点解释的机会。然而他不知道的是，那次考试我考了全班第一，从他指责我那一刻起，我就再也不想同他讲话了。吃饭的时候，他竟然夹了一块虾子给我，奶奶在一旁想拦住，却被我劝阻了，我吃下了那块虾，之后就全身起红疹，甚至进了医院，因为我对虾类过敏，而他却忘了。
Perhaps be since then, I begin to make a pair of not rare gesture to all his cares. He is aware of it seems that, the period of time later, he calls often to me, the manner is more and more low-down also, please me cautiously.
也许是从那以后，我开始对他的一切关心做出一副不稀罕的姿态。他似乎察觉到了，之后的一段时间，他特别频繁地给我打电话，态度也越来越卑微，小心翼翼地讨好我。
That Saturday, I write line of business in the room, the somebody outside hearing a door knocks, I let him come in, I had turned round to discover is him, I am particularly disappointed. He goes to the side of me to ask I am working, I did not manage he, he did not get angry, just look for a chair, sit to the side of me. He says: "Father these days have holidays by turns, come back to accompany you! " I sneered to say: "Accompany me? Do you work early went? " " either, father wants to earn money, how to raise you otherwise? " " fund fund, you know money, be money after all important or am I important? " I choke with sobs, "Arrive as a child big, want to ask when you come back only, you say you are in earn money desperately. I am special when you know not to know to attend a meeting the parent every time expect you can come back, but you are done not have. Still have receipt sheet is sent in the school every time, when letting the parent sign, what sign on my bill only is the grandfather's name, have me only! " he became red orbit, say to me: "Baby, father wants to compensate you really. " " fill? You are absent is me whole childhood, how do you tell me to fill? I do not envy others without which, because,not be other, have pa Mom by them, pa Mom is beside, I had been done not have. " I had turned personally, sobbing in a low voice. "I am sorry! " he was saying to give a room, the door was shut heavily.
那个周六，我在房间里写作业，听到房门外有人敲门，我便让他进来了，我回过头来发现是他，我特别失望。他走到我旁边问我在干嘛，我没理他，他没生气，只是找来一把椅子，坐到我旁边。他说：“爸爸这几天轮休，回来陪你！”我冷笑了一声说：“陪我？你早干嘛去了？”“不是的，爸爸要挣钱呀，不然怎么养你？”“钱钱钱，你就知道钱，到底是钱重要还是我重要？”我哽咽道，“从小到大，只要问你什么时候回来，你就说你在拼命挣钱。你知不知道每次开家长会的时候我都特别期待你会回来，但你一次都没有。还有每次学校里发回执单，让家长签字的时候，只有我的单子上签的是爷爷的名字，只有我！”他红了眼眶，对我说：“宝贝，爸爸真的想补偿你。”“补？你缺席的是我整个童年，你告诉我怎么补？我没有哪一次不羡慕别人，不是因为别的，就凭他们有爸妈，爸妈在身边，我没有过。”我转过了身，小声抽泣着。“对不起！”他说着便出了房间，门重重地关上了。
When my mood be pacified some, I walk out of a room, only the grandma sits in the sitting room, "He? " I ask. "Your pa spends birthday today, asked for leave to come home, just talked about a day to sit with you the car answers Wen Zhou, I had not seen your pa cries this appearance. " grandma path. I am stupefied, stand in place for ages for ages.
等到我情绪平复些，我走出房间，只有奶奶坐在客厅里，“他呢？”我问。“你爸今天过生日，请了假回家的，刚和你聊完天就坐车回温州了，我都没见过你爸哭成这个样子。”奶奶道。我愣住了，站在原地好久好久。
Was troubled by contradiction with the grandfather that day, he says: "If you are not taken an examination of go up in the bosom, nobody is accompanied to you read! " I run father brings a lawsuit against then, I say: "Pa, if be not taken an examination of,your father says me on in the bosom, do not accompany to me read! " want to coming for fun with him only originally, he is particularly serious however the ground says to me: "You should be taken an examination of in going up to conceive, my pa is accompanied to you read, you should be not taken an examination of on, your pa I am accompanied to you read. Your pa I am accompanied to you read..
那天和爷爷闹矛盾，他说：“你要是考不上怀中，没人给你陪读！”我跑去父亲那告状，我说：“爸，你爸说我要是考不上怀中，就不给我陪读了！”本只想和他开玩笑来着，他却特别认真地对我说：“你要考上了怀中，我爸给你陪读，你要没考上，你爸我给你陪读。”
That is my first time hear so warm word from inside this man mouth.
那是我第一次从这个男人口中听到这么暖的话。