经过紧张的奥数学习，我和我的同桌即将迎来奥数考试。
After intense study of Olympiad mathematics, my desk mate and I are about to take the Olympiad mathematics exam.
“小胖，马上就要奥数考试了，考试时候你的答案能给我看看吗？”听着熟悉的声音，我有些不知如何回答。“行不行？朋友还做不做了？”在他的软磨硬泡下，我竟鬼使神差地答应下来。
Xiaopang, the Olympiad math exam is coming up soon. Can you show me your answer during the exam? "Listening to the familiar voice, I didn't know how to answer. Is it okay? Will my friend still do it? "Under his persuasion, I reluctantly agreed.
“那就行，谢谢了啊！”听着他松了一口气的话，我却有些不知如何回答，开心，鄙视，司空见惯？这些情感或许都有一些，复杂的情感占据着我的大脑，左右着我的思考，愣是让我等到他远去还没吐出一个字。
That's good, thank you! "I listened to him breathe a sigh of relief, but I didn't know how to answer, happy, contemptuous, commonplace? These emotions may all have some, complex emotions occupying my brain, influencing my thinking, and making me wait until he is far away without uttering a word.
奥数考试如约而至，进入考场后，监考老师板着那张严肃的脸，令人有些心惊。听着老师宣读考试规则，看着同桌远远冲我比了个手势，我有些恍惚。
The Olympiad math exam arrived as scheduled, and upon entering the examination room, the invigilator's serious face made people feel a bit uneasy. Listening to the teacher read out the exam rules and watching my desk mate gesture at me from a distance, I felt a bit dazed.
很快我就完成了试卷，并将答案抄在了纸条上，偷偷冲同桌比了个OK。纸条将要出手时，或许是心理作用，感觉监考老师在盯着我，目光明察秋毫，吓得我打了个寒噤。
I quickly finished the exam paper and copied the answers on a piece of paper, secretly comparing it to my desk mate. When the paper was about to be handed over, perhaps it was a psychological effect. I felt like the invigilator was staring at me, with a keen eye, which scared me and made me shiver.
同桌焦急地冲我打着手势，我却犹豫了：“传纸条，这种做法难道是正确的吗？”我心绪复杂，可当我看到同桌焦急的神色时，我又有些不知所措，复杂的情感油然而生：“传吧，不仅能救他，还能加固我们的友谊。”我试图说服自己，但无济于事。
My desk mate anxiously gestured at me, but I hesitated: "Is passing a note the right thing to do?" My emotions were complex, but when I saw my desk mate's anxious expression, I felt a bit at a loss. Complex emotions arose: "Pass it on, not only can it save him, but it can also strengthen our friendship." I tried to persuade myself, but to no avail.
终于，我下定了不传的决心，将纸条紧紧地攥在手心里。
Finally, I made up my mind not to pass on the note and held it tightly in my palm.
难熬的考试时间终于结束，随着收卷铃声的响起，我仿佛才站在了阳光下。缓缓松开了紧握的双拳，丝毫感受不到手心早已被汗水浸湿。
The difficult exam time finally came to an end, and as the roll up bell rang, I felt as if I had just stood in the sunshine. Slowly releasing the tightly clenched fists, there was no feeling that the palms had already been soaked in sweat.
朋友，不，同桌缓缓走到我的身边，用复杂的眼神扫了我一眼，就头也不回地离去了。看着他远去的背影，我的鼻子酸酸的，什么话也说不出来。
Friend, no, my desk mate slowly walked up to me, gave me a complicated look, and then left without looking back. Watching his receding figure, my nose was sore and I couldn't say anything.
仿佛这一刻，时间与空间都被撕裂了，似乎只是一刹那，又好像是一辈子，我撕开嘴唇，声音沙哑得仿佛含了一口沙子般，向自己的选择发出疑问：“值得吗？”
At this moment, time and space seem to be torn apart. It seems like it's just a moment, but also like a lifetime. I tear open my lips, my voice hoarse as if it's a mouthful of sand, questioning my choice: "Is it worth it
失去了思考能力的我机械地撕着早已被汗水浸湿的答案，就像撕着早已变质的友谊……实际上，哪怕他上来打我、骂我，我都不会那么难受，因为此时，我像一只受了委屈的猫，湿漉漉地难受。
I, who had lost my ability to think, mechanically tore apart answers that had already been soaked in sweat, just like tearing apart friendships that had already deteriorated... In fact, even if he came up to hit or scold me, I wouldn't feel so uncomfortable because at this moment, I was like a cat that had been wronged, feeling wet and uncomfortable.
我撕扯着答案，复杂的情感让我眼前变得模糊，眼泪无声地顺着眼角流下，滑过脸颊，停留在了下巴上。我拼命安慰着自己，歇斯底里地告诉自己：“自己是正确的，是值得的！”
I tore at the answer, and the complex emotions blurred my vision. Tears silently flowed down the corners of my eyes, sliding over my cheeks and resting on my chin. I tried my best to comfort myself, hysterically telling myself, 'I was right, it was worth it!'
“同学，该离场了……”老师的声音将我拉回现实，望着手中撕成碎片的答案：“我失去了友谊，身上却无了枷锁，心灵上一片宁静。”
Classmate, it's time to leave... "The teacher's voice pulled me back to reality, looking at the answer torn apart in his hand:" I lost my friendship, but I have no shackles on my body, and my soul is peaceful
走出考场的我，鼻子酸酸的，追着光，我大步向远方走去……
As I walked out of the exam room, my nose was sore. Chasing the light, I strode towards the distance