周围的喧闹声仿佛与我之间隔了一层薄薄的障壁，把我与他们隔了开来。我微微弯着腰，不停地搓着手，有些手足无措之感。
The noise around me seemed to have a thin barrier separating me from them. I bent slightly and kept rubbing my hands, feeling a bit at a loss.
教室里，老师让学生们互相点评着对方的作文，同学们顿时炸开了锅，嚷嚷的声音不断。我与上次一样等着有人邀请我，可现实却狠狠地给了我一个巴掌。我捏着我的本子，心里有些恼火亦有些委屈。我明明能够指出他们的错误、给出更好的建议，为什么没有人来找我？像上次一样。
In the classroom, the teacher asked the students to comment on each other's compositions, and the students immediately exploded, shouting incessantly. I waited for someone to invite me like last time, but reality gave me a hard slap. I held my notebook in my hand, feeling both annoyed and aggrieved. Why hasn't anyone come to me when I can point out their mistakes and provide better advice? Like last time.
上次……
Last time… …
“喂，我们互相批一下吧，就不去找别人了。”同桌笑着把本子递给我。我心里没什么感觉，觉得就应该这样。于是我拿起红笔在她的本子上圈圈改改，看哪里都像是有些问题，于是划了一个又一个圈。“你问题很严重啊！”我这样说着，心里还有一点找到别人错处的隐秘的骄傲感。同桌脸上的笑容僵了一瞬，问我哪里有问题，我一一回答：“这里的措辞我觉得需要议一议……”“这一段放在下面会更好一点……”“这个观点我不是很赞同……”我按着我的想法说着，却没看见她脸色有些复杂，有些欲言又止。
“ Hey, let's criticize each other and not go find anyone else. ” My desk mate smiled and handed me the notebook. I don't feel much in my heart, I think it should be like this. So I picked up the red pen and circled around her notebook, making sure there were some issues everywhere, so I circled one after another. “ Your problem is very serious! ” As I say this, I still have a sense of hidden pride in finding someone else's mistake. The smile on my desk mate's face froze for a moment. When he asked me where the problem was, I answered one by one:; I think the wording here needs to be discussed; … ” “ This paragraph would be better placed below; … ” “ I don't quite agree with this viewpoint; … ” I spoke according to my ideas, but I didn't see that her face was a bit complicated and she was hesitant to speak.
我接过我的本子，看着上面的圈点，有些恼火，便问她这样写有什么问题，她说这样的例子放在这种题目中不太切题，我皱了皱眉，说差不多就行了，不用纠结太多。
I took my notebook and looked at the dots on it, feeling a little annoyed. So I asked her what the problem was with writing like this. She said that such an example was not very relevant to this type of question. I frowned and said it was almost enough, there was no need to worry too much.
“时间到了！”台上的老师拍了拍讲台，我也从回忆中惊醒过来，发觉自己到最后还是没有找到别人给自己批改。
“ time out! ” The teacher on stage patted the podium, and I woke up from my memories, realizing that in the end, I still couldn't find anyone else to correct myself.
老师才开始喊停，周围依然有些小声议论的声音。我依稀听到有人问为什么没有人找我，而另一个人回答他说：“她对别人要求非常严格，却不以相同的要求来约束自己，严于待人，宽以律己，没有人愿意和她一起。”
The teacher just started shouting to stop, and there were still some whispers around. I vaguely heard someone asking why no one was looking for me, and another person answered him by saying, '; She is very strict with others, but does not constrain herself with the same requirements. She is strict with others and lenient with herself, and no one wants to be with her. ”
我低着头，默默的。
I lowered my head, silently.
不知为何，突然想起昨天偶然看到的排球比赛，虽然我不懂规则，却看得懂选手们的兴奋与失落。在自己队员失误的时候，她们不吝啬自己的安慰与鼓励；在自己失误的时候却是异常的后悔，变得紧张起来，更为认真而谨慎。
For some reason, I suddenly remembered the volleyball match I happened to see yesterday. Although I didn't understand the rules, I could understand the excitement and disappointment of the players. When their team members make mistakes, they are not stingy with their comfort and encouragement; When one makes a mistake, they become unusually regretful, nervous, and more serious and cautious.
严于律己，宽以待人。
Be strict with oneself and lenient towards others.
回想起过去自己做过的种种，心中便涌起一阵阵地寒意。或许我和同学们之间的障壁，就是这样生出的。
Recalling all the things I have done in the past, a chill surges in my heart. Perhaps the barrier between me and my classmates was created in this way.
我不知该如何弥补过去，便只有改变自己的未来。
I don't know how to make up for the past, so I have to change my future.
我拉了拉同桌的衣袖：“上次，抱歉了。”看着她疑惑的眼神，我也没有解释什么，只是笑了笑。
I tugged at my desk mate's sleeve:; Last time, I apologize. ” Looking at her puzzled eyes, I didn't explain anything, just smiled.