在我的成长过程中，犹豫，曾经像一个大毒瘤，影响我的生活，让我浪费了许多时间，失去了很多机会。
In my growth process, hesitation was like a big tumor that affected my life, causing me to waste a lot of time and lose many opportunities.
我好像从小就是一个拿不定主意的孩子。记得有一次跟妈妈去商场，妈妈让我去挑一件自己喜欢的东西，作为礼物送给我，这让我心花怒放，满怀喜悦地开始我的寻物之旅。
I seem to have been a indecisive child since I was young. I remember one time when I went to the mall with my mom, she asked me to pick out something I liked and give it to me as a gift. It made me feel happy and fulfilled, and I began my journey of searching for things.
突然就感觉商场里东西太多了，让我喜欢的也多得数不过来，但妈妈说过，只能选一样，这就让我陷入了困境。
Suddenly, I felt like there were too many things in the mall, and I couldn't count the ones I liked. But my mom said I could only choose one, which put me in a dilemma.
我感觉，我的大脑里有两个小人，在不停地争吵。每当我拿起一件物品，一个同意，另一个却马上反对，让我也不知如何是好，只好放弃了。再拿起一件，又是一个说好，一个在挑毛病……
I feel like there are two little people in my brain, constantly arguing. Whenever I pick up an item, one agrees and the other immediately opposes, leaving me unsure of what to do and having to give up. Pick up another one, another one says good, and the other is picking on flaws… …
当我犹豫了快半个小时的时候，跟在后面的妈妈终于忍无可忍了，生气地说：“既然你找不到自己喜欢的，那我们就不买了！”
When I hesitated for almost half an hour, my mother who was following behind finally couldn't bear it anymore and angrily said; Since you can't find what you like, we won't buy it! ”
就这样，我的犹豫不决，不但浪费了我和妈妈的时间，让我失去了获取一份礼物的机会，还受到妈妈的批评，本来高兴的心情，一下子变成了失落和沮丧。
In this way, my hesitation not only wasted my time and my mother's time, causing me to miss the opportunity to receive a gift, but also received criticism from my mother. My originally happy mood suddenly turned into disappointment and frustration.
这样的事还发生过好多次，每次事后，我都告诉自己：不能这样，要改变自己。直到上了初中，一件看似简单的事彻底改变了我。
This has happened many times before, and every time after, I tell myself: I can't do this, I have to change myself. Until I entered junior high school, something seemingly simple completely changed me.
入学后，我们班迎来了第一次国旗下演讲的机会。老师让同学们自告奋勇，代表全班，展示新中学生的风采。我心动了，但马上脑海里那两个小人又蹦出来了。
After enrollment, our class had the first opportunity to give a speech under the national flag. The teacher asked the students to volunteer and represent the whole class, showcasing the charm of the new high school students. I was tempted, but immediately those two little people popped up in my mind again.
“报名，大胆表现一次。”
“ Register and boldly demonstrate once. ”
“不行，万一做不好……”
“ No, in case we can't do it well… … ”
“不试怎么知道行不行呢？”
“ How can we know if it's okay without trying? ”
“如果失败了呢？”
“ What if it fails? ”
……
… …
短短几分钟，手心都出汗了。犹豫，拿不定主意，不知道该如何是好。
In just a few minutes, my palms were sweating. Hesitation, indecision, unsure of what to do.
有人举手报名了。
Someone raised their hand to register.
又有人举手报名了……
Someone raised their hand again to register; …
我要改变自己！我在心底喊着，一咬牙，我举起了手！
I want to change myself! I shouted from the bottom of my heart, gritted my teeth, and raised my hand!
在举起之前，那手重若千钧，举起之后，却顿时感觉到了轻松，脸上也顿时绽开了笑容。
Before lifting it, the hand was as heavy as a thousand pounds, but after lifting it, I immediately felt relaxed and a smile spread on my face.
我举手了！我战胜了左右为难的自己！
I raised my hand! I have overcome the dilemma of myself!
虽然在那次演讲中，出现了一些小失误，但我的大胆表现得到了老师和同学们的认可。更重要的是从那以后，我变了，我遇事不再犹豫！我的生活从此呈现了不一样的色彩！
Although there were some minor mistakes in that speech, my bold performance was recognized by my teacher and classmates. More importantly, since then, I have changed and I no longer hesitate when faced with problems! My life has taken on a different color since then!